„Sea color” oil on icon panel, 50/70cm, 20/27,5 inch, 2015
This is second, from tree paintings about „be/have”.I started from the blue and now I’m going in direction of green, but I start tentatively, from special shade which is somwhere between that two: the color of the sea.
I read somewhere, that man can recognize more shades of green, than any other colour. This skill was useful for survival in ancient times and part of this ability is still in us today. Although the green was so important for man, somehow I did not use it much till now. I almost did not paint with this color, maybe only to break other colors. Last time I used it, in it’s pure form, in „Debora” painting, it was during my studies at Academy of Art. Paint such „green” work is something new and exciting for me. This is hard to catch on the photo, and it is obvious in live, but all background is in deep sea color.
I associate this color with the depths, space, with flowing out to the open sea.
I am not sure why but exactly this color seemed to be suitable to say about losing, about the fact that sometimes we have something and then it’s gone. There was no accident, we do not lost it dramatically, it was not even taken away from us. Sometimes, we really don’t want to deal with a problem, sometimes we prefer to leave it alone and do nothing, we want to let it somehow resolve itself, or let someone deal it for us. Part of being an adult, is that even as we know that later we will suffer, some things have to be done. Sometimes we have to reject part of ourselves to go further. Ability to lose part of „Me” is important, and give a unique strength. This is painting about the strenght, arising from the fact that, we know how and we are capable to cope with difficulties.
„That was hard, but everything is all right now. I fell stronger now.” – this girl could say
I always make lot of plans, and every inch of my work is carefully thought out. I always choose to base on reality, and would rather, leave something unpainted, than draw it relying only on my imagination. Even when I invent something, I’m looking for inspiration in reality. This time I was spontaneous and painted parts of the image, simply by closing my eyes and inventing. Of course, size and location of these parts was carefully planned….