Powerful Portraits Explores our daily freedom we forget to celebrate.
In 2017 I painted series of works „Boson” called after Boson of Peter Higgs, particle known from physics. In layman meaning, of the Boson is something which makes particles together, and therefore makes that everything have mass. So it is something that makes things, what they are. The particles without masses fall into a pole/interact with it and already they have mass, vary mass and become different things. I connected this thing with reflections about human condition and realized that „freedom” is our Boson – freedom makes us who we really are. We con not be truly ourselves when we are not free. The first painting from series „The flower of Fern” explores this. „Black and White play” shows darker side of freedom, when we have to make difficult decision, sometimes between worse and the worst. Making every decision by yourself, even that extremely difficult, we doesn’t want to, make us truly free – when You let someone else doing it for you, lose important part of you. This reflections lead us to third painting from series „Too sweet to be serious” which concentrates on self accepting. „Double freedom” and „Paradox” explores idea of freedom in context of relations with loved persons. Could be truly free when we love and when someones happiness depends from us? The last one „The lady of time” shares theme of the most overwhelming and irresistible power – of passing time. This painting shows a door a key for all contexts – power of our mind – we are free when we feel free. Freedom is in our mind.
Below is my way of traveling from one painting to another. My reflections, and how my thoughts from one painting wandered to another are located below, and took form od diary.
Inspirations for cycle „Boson”
This is not project ended by exhibition. This is something I found interesting and felt that it is something huge – will be presented, and connected with more than couple of paintings.
In layman meaning, of the Higgs Boson is something which makes particles together, and therefore makes that EVERYTHING have mass. So boson is something that makes things, what they are. The particles without masses fall into a pole/interact with boson and already they have mass, vary mass and become different things, some of them, do not react, and become the light – without mass.
I heard somewhere, that it glues the universe.
Theory of Elementary particles has been confirmed when Boson was proved that exist. It has been proven that using the Large Hadron Collider.
There is still dark matter and dark energy that are not yet clarified.
I – from painter point of view – an artist – I see it like this: we have particles, and they are only potentially something, there is also the pole / mysterious particle which makes particles different from each other, so in this meaning it create things. The world is unity, and in a sense, in every particle is contained everything other. In that meaning I’m a bridge in Warsaw, I’m rat in Africa, I am revolver in the belt of villain. In that meaning there is no „me” and never was. BUT it is too much of ‚philosophy-ing’.
I look at my son, crawling on all fours infant, and I know that boson has something to do with gathering strength, massing character. Because at some point you just grow up and do not care on less important things. You have the strength. You have confidence. You can evaluate, you can choose, and suffer the consequences. You know you can handle. You know that if not, it is not so big drama. And it is also o.k
When I was creating this work I felt that it is beginning of new stage. But didn’t know exactly what it was, I was sure it is first from series, and this theme will be with me for a longer time. I just couldn’t formulate it. Flash of inspiration came to me during watching physics program at Sunday morning, about hadron collider. Then everything began to join in together.
Boson is that who you are when you feel free.
Boson is freedom.
„The Flower of fern” – oil on canvas 100/70cm, 35,5/27,5 inch 2017
2016.12.01 / Beginning of Boson 2
War colors on the body.
Body painting and primary peoples / control the body/ dirt
2017 01 27
Black-and-white world of black-and-white people
Among them is you
What color is your freedom?
2017 02 22
Instead of avoiding the problem and trying to convince yourself that it is not there
take a moment to think
And do something
Anything, to solve it
Freedom is in the head
2017 03 13
Understand the arguments of both sides and think independently.
„Black and white play”
P: „You are talking to me about serious matters and I’m joking, I’m playing with you, BUT I understand and I agree, but I can’t stop myself”
(..) „Because. Why be so serious?
It is obvious. We know each other. ”
It was supposed to be so serious, it was supposed to be so „high”,
But seeing in someone else, that lofty tone, I realized that it sounds a little funny though.
I recently learned to be unhampered
take what I get
And reach for what I want
Freedom is in your actions
2017 03 27
„Freedom is the state of mind”
There are days when I believe in it, without any reservation. There are also days when I hear the same words, from someone else, and I have to question it immediately. The person who speaks, for sure have everything easier, sure this someone have significant help, or didn’t experience any surious problems. Ooo naivety … who says it, will surely find out one day, bad things will catch him and then he will hides his stupid utopian advice in pocket.
There are people who have really horrible situation. There are people who you say „freedom is the state of mind”, and it is like to slap them in face.
But let’s be honest. This is not you. You have a pretty cool life. Those who have a really aweful situation are not in majority. Our big „very surious” problems, are stupid , when we look at them from a distance (do not feel offended, this is positive). And freedom IS the state of mind. Calmness is also the state of mind. You can and should practice it, just as exercise body by running, to run for a bigger distance.
Boson is a state of mind
Freedom is the state of mind
Calm is the state of mind
Somewhere under all this, is „control” over what is arround you, over your own body, over a close for you person …
And lack of control – liberation from …
Thoughts about freedom led me tomaking my definition, what today is it for me. The answer is „Black and White play”.
„Black and white play” Boson 2, oil on canvas 100/70cm 39,5/27,5 in 2017
Too sweet to be serious.
Does freedom is girl or boy?
And if she is a girl how is she?
What is a truly free girl?
And can the power of the spirit resemble the gigantic pink marshmallow, that crushes what will stand on its way?
I mix what is female and male, in pastel soup.
Freedom is to be yourself,
True freedom is: to not have to pretend enything
it is to be ordinary person and do not worry about it
Freedom is to value yourself as you are.
„Freedom is free moving throught your one’s own mind”
Quote from „Chef’s table”
Freedom is letting yourself to be worse, slower, less capable, less interesting
Freedom is to be here, consciously in your life, accepting yourself, like who you are and appreciate what you have done and will done.
Freedom is acceptance.
Freedom is self acceptance as you are, along with the emotions you have. Because the emotions can not be controlled, sometimes they are like stinking farts, they are surprising, unortunately in the unnice way (i am not telling about silent ninja farts). But these are only emotions, everyone sometimes has the ones that are not proud. Sometimes you will never admit it, but our actions proofs what we are.
Sometimes it is difficult to admit even to yourself that „I am angry”.
With anger, especially girls, have a problem, they do not allow it to themselves and cover it up by other emotions. Sometimes I’m angry, sometimes something pisses me off. It’s nice to let yourself feel this emotion.
„Too sweet to be serious.” Boson 3, oil on canvas 100/70cm 39,5/27,5 in 2017
2017 09 14
I have fourth part of series „Boson” about freedom, done.
There was painting about pure freedom, which is in my opinion factor that makes us who we are – true human – we can not truly be ourselves in captivity – ” The flower of Fern”.
Second was about black side of freedom – difficult decisions – freedom has a black face, or a gray zone and sometimes every decision is wrong but giving it to someone else you loses your freedom – a part of your soul/mind – „Black and white play”.
I also looked at freedom as acceptance – being free is to be ourselves – when we are different, and we are not fit into usual standards, but also when we are too ordinary to self-esteem – freedom is acceptance of our innocence and mediocrity.
Now I am presenting painting about love and freedom. I was asking myself what about freedom when your happiness depends from, or is strongly connected with someone?
The results below and in link. http://annawypych.pl/?p=1646
„Double freedom” Boson 4, oil on canvas 100/70 cm 39,5/27,5 in 2017
„Paradox” Boson 5, oil on canvas 100/70 cm 39,5”x27,5” 2017
This is fifth painting from series „Boson” about freedom and its variety of meanings and contexts. This time I asked myself about freedom in context with parenting.
How about freedom, in context of parenting and role of parent? If parent could ever feel free? Should feel free? Is able to be truly free? What is the definition of freedom of loving parent? Does he/she still need it ? Or maybe it is just impossible and becoming parent you lose it forever?
„The Lady of Time” Boson 6, oil on canvas 100 / 70cm 39.5 „x 27.5” 2018
Here we are „Boson 6”. I am developing this series for over a year and planned to paint 7 paintings in it.
All the works in this series are about freedom, but captured each time in a slightly different context. In this painting I considered freedom in relation to the time. From the passage of time, in my opinion one of the most powerful thing in the world, we can never be free, but surely? maybe, we have a little influence on how our time runs, on a small daily scale.
Here is more about this particular painting: http://annawypych.pl/?p=1934